The Last Note.

To the “Perfect” Boyfriend,

You were there when I needed you. Always had been my strength and support despite the many naysayers I had.

You were there to wipe my tears away and hold me tight when my world felt like it was exploding.

You were the first person I’d run to, happy, sad or angry. You tried your best to make everything better.

As time passed, the spark faded into the abyss. I was ignored, only to be replaced by new things that you became so engrossed with.

I tried, oh hell, I tried to shake it off, to look past this downfall. I tried my best to tell you how I felt. You said to give you another chance, and then another, and another. It worked for a while. The more I tried, the more I realised I was drifting apart.

How did it come to a point where I couldn’t open up my feelings, as to feel more excluded and ridiculed?

You felt like home before, but now, I just can’t stand being around you.

Perfection never lasts. Everyone has their shortcomings, me included.

It hurts to say goodbye, but my heart can’t take another repeated cycle.

I wish you love and peace in your life.


December: Day 18

Being one week away from Christmas, I was reminded about how our past hurts can still cause a deep pain within us. A technique to help ease this pain has helped me with mine and I hope that it will help you with yours too. It is by the authors of The Tools. I’m really bad with names but it was written by 2 authors.

Day 18: Active Love
Take a deep breathe in, close your eyes. Exhale slowly. Now, think of one person that has caused you pain. Your brain will tend to wander about at this point, but remember you’re in control of your thoughts.
See that person stand in front of you. Take another deep breathe in.
Now, the hard part comes – as you exhale, exhale out love and peace onto that person. Do it a few times till you feel a burden lightened up on you. Feel yourself transferring love onto that person.
Open your eyes and if you don’t feel any different, try it again. If you do, congrats!

Be kind to one another 🙂 x